welcome to my blog

inspired by several of my friends, i have decided to establish my own blog. it is, of course, vain imagination to presume that everyone i know will read this and diligently attend to each new posting, and i'm okay with that. for those of you who do wish to keep up, allow me to warn you that it is your vain imagination which causes you to presume that i will diligently and regularly add new postings. my disclaimer is this...i will post when i feel i have something to say. never more, never less than that will i offer. that being said, and being that this is a post, i will attempt to 'say' something...
during worship at church tonight, God spoke to me something that has been brewing in me for several days: don't worry so much about how things should be; accept how they are and then begin to change them. see, i'm a major analytic. i think all the time, somtimes too much. i like things orderly and as they should be (or as i perceive they should be). when they are not as they should be, i'm not happy--especially if i don't know how to repair the situation. lately, i've been kinda unhappy with myself, because i'm not all the things i should be. After discussing this with my pastor sunday night, i made two lists: one, who i am, and two, who (or what) i think i should be that i'm not. i don't have the list with me, but i think the ratio was 8:2, or something outrageous like that. i let these two little things rule my life for several weeks. i was miserable and i didn't know why. the things aren't even that significant. (what they are is, of course, no concern of yours. :D)
so, if there's a moral somewhere in there for you, may you find it. or here, let me make it obvious (only because i feel the need to clarify). accepting things as they are is not necessarily approving of them. always saying how things should be, and never doing anything to remedy them, fixes nothing. yes, many things should be different. but until we accept them just as they are (just the way Jesus accepts us), we cannot change them.

i'd love to know you're thoughts on the matter. and, by the way, i won't always type in all lower cases; i just felt like it tonight.